each day that goes by it does NOT get any easier. I miss you so much. My life keeps going on and being different. Things that should be being so much fun is not. I am beginning to move into my house and things need to be bought like drapes. stuff for the bathroom, kitchen, the bedroom, paint colors need to be thought about and talked about. I feel all alone with these choices. I don't know how to make things go together and look nice and be homey. I go to target look around try to feel you help but I don't so I just walk out with nothing. go back days later and just get something that will cover a fucking window. I just miss our friendship.