Damn it Julia I miss you so much. James has paid for a day at the spa for me. If you were here he would pay for one for you to be able to go with me. This is something we always wanted to do together. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go with any one other than you and to go by myself... is what I'm going to do I guess. but what massage to I choose? Again I miss you. I want you to come play with me. I want to sit and listen to music and cry over songs. I want to see your face, your smile,hear you voice,see your painted toes. I love you every day I miss you every day.